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:| i hope u like hell because ive been trapped in tokio hell for over a decade and its TIRING. I know you're like "HOW DOES HE KNOW SO MUCH JANIZU HISTORY" and quite frankly I wish I didn't, but somehow TOKIO is daisenpai now and that means I know a whole crapton of shit. Like my brain is a depository for information that ISN'T EVEN THAT IMPORTANT TO ME but I guess it comes in handy for when I wanna RP flashback things like this. :3c

BUT SERIOUSLY DON'T WORRY ABOUT LATE REPLIES OR SHITTY REPLIES OR WHAT NOT because like. Y'know. Low stress stuff. I'M SUPER EXCITED TO BE ABLE TO WRITE TOMO AGAIN TOO JSYK and the fact that it's Sakurase makes me like oooooooooooooooh my goooooooooooooooood

d;skfd;gk I don't feel bad though! It's just funny how things keep popping up to make me realise how unhealthy/terrible that relationship was, and now I'm just sort of like. JEEZ. What took me so long to realise it. I mean, I gotta admit there were good points, but like comparing to the bad points...

Nothing wrong with thinking with your pants, I think, but the term "fuck a door" is really funny to hear HAHAH. My ex and I were long-distance too, the first long-distance I ever had?? And she, too, had an intense sex drive which apparently my sadistic dominant self satisfied through commands spoken over the telephone. :|a IDK, I tend not to think too seriously about relationships until it's been a while, but if you're having fun with your partner and they're being good to you then it's just nice to appreciate something for what it is. :3a

My problem ~~special ability?~~ is that when I get into a fandom, I don't just get into a fandom, I FUCKING JUMP IN BOTH FEET FIRST AND GO COMPLETELY MAD AND GET OBSSESSED and go crazy and write a shit-ton of fanfic and everything, so, yeah. Is it that kind of Hell? Because I am entirely comfortable and used to that kind of Hell. :| By all means please keep the random TOKIO facts coming! I find them entertaining and interesting ~~and they make my shitty little life that much better by knowing them, hahaha~~

THANK YOU I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM ACTUALLY WRITING SHO lfkljkpkjkj;kj;;;; It's taking me a little while to really get into the swing of writing as him but it's SO MUCH FUN. Apologies if I make mistakes with honorifics and things too - I'm guessing he knows Tomoya well enough to refer to him by his first name and not call him 'Nagase-san' in private? I love Sakurase, fucking hell, this is giving me some seriously hot mental images too so it's your fault just as much as mine THANK YOU

Just as long as you're okay, yeah? Look after yourself, make sure you actually eat and drink and shower and rest and stuff. Self-care is SO FUCKING IMPORTANT and you need to remember that you're an awesome person and you deserve to feel looked-after and shit. I think it's healthy that you can look back and see the bad things and realise it wasn't a great relationship, but try and focus on positive stuff and don't get too hung up on it if you can.

~~You did phone stuff? See, I think THAT'S pretty intense and powerful~~ I've had a few long-distance relationships (including intercontinental ones) so yeah, I reckon you're right. As long as you're both happy and having a good time, just have fun.

THE TOKIO FACTS ARE VITAL TO ME the unvital things are the other random Janizu shit I've picked up over the years like WHY DO I RETAIN THIS INFORMATION ;lsdkfj Man, I totally have no clue what it's like to jump into any fandom headfirst any more because all my life has been dedicated to the old instrument-playing men--it's like, in my miserable little life nobody else can compare after exposure to them. LMFAO';ksdfjdg

AND YEAH, I don't think Sho even calls him Nagase-san at work? It's just Nagase-kun, right? Janizu has this weird hierarchy thing where -san is the highest of the high (hence everyone calling Matchy "Matchy-san"), while -kun is used for senpai who aren't necessarily super duper higher than you but are still your senpai and you gotta show the difference. Which is why I find it amazing that Tomo calls Sho "Sho-kun" like legit... and Toshi "Ohno-kun" which means apparently Toshi is an even higher level than Sho? Since it's last name? LIKE WHY. but tangent aside the whole thing is great THE RP IS PAINFULLY CUTE RN WITH THE WHOLE CATCHING UP THING TOO and your sho is just fiiiiiiiine... when i think about the fact that sho's still super young in the scenario i start to weep because man it has been so LONG

Thanks--I'm doing well for the most part! More than being hung up on the past it's more like I go "smh" at a lot of things. Love is blinding. OR SOMETHING CHEESY LIKE THAT. I've been doing a lot better now emotionally even though physically (i.e. WORK AND SCHOOL) have been monumentally worse. BUT THAT'S LIFE I GUESS.

~~HALF THE TIME I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING WHEN I DIRTY TALK BUT I GUESS IT WORKS........................................rip me~~

They may be old men with guitars (and drums, and a keyboard, and microphones and shit) but dammit they're important old men with guitars so of course they're gonna make other groups pale in comparison. IT'S COOL. Your dedication is admirable as fuck, man.

Ah, see, that's a thing about honorifics with JE that I didn't know! And now you've pointed it out I'm seeing it in the variety shows and it makes a lot more sense. THANK YOU AGAIN and GOD DAMMIT POWER BOTTOM TOMOYA NAGASE I am getting all these RP feels now from Nagase being protective and interested in how Sho's doing and still caring and then Sho has to go and fuck things up by asking about HER

Yeah, I gather you've been working your ass off with things. GOOD LUCK WITH EXAMS AND SHIT! Love isn't only blinding, it can numb your other senses too or something else equally cheesy. Fuck, I'm not really sure where I was going with this. BASICALLY PLEASE CONTINUE TO BE OKAY. <3

DUDE, IT'S LIKE I SAID, THE ACE FRIENDS I KNOW ARE ALSO THE ONES WHO HAVE THE SMUTTIEST MINDS and also you write smut well, so there. You don't have to wanna do stuff in person to be good at thinking it or writing about it

HAHAHA, I WONDER. Yesterday I went to this national film archive and they talked about these programs to restore old videos and films, and literally the first thought that came to mind was "I could use this to make TOKIO's 1994 concert HD." LIKE....................

LISTEN, SHO DIDN'T MEAN TO. And Tomo can't necessarily lie and say everything's gonna be okay BECAUSE IT'S NOT and he's just too scared to break-up with her ~~the tomo + ayu relationship was so fucked up, man~~ and. RIP. :'( He lov u tho, Sho-kun, you're his precious friend On another note though I love how you keep using his full name like POWER BOTTOM TOMOYA NAGASE ;sdkjslhf A LONG TIME AGO MY BLOG TITLE WAS "ULTIMATE BOTTOM TOMOYA NAGASE" AND IT JUST MAKES ME LAUGH ALL THE TIME

I'LL BE OKAY DFLHDGD THANKS FOR BEING SO NICE TO ME!!!!!! i'm just sleepy a lot is the worst thing about me recently, the exams aren't too bad :x I HOPE U CONTINUE 2 BE OK TOO

Ah, that's cool! Was that for work or personal interest? 'Cause either way that sounds really interesting. OH MAN, IF WE COULD MAKE STUFF HD, THERE ARE SO MANY JE SHOWS FROM THE EARLY 90's WE COULD BRING TO THE WORLD AGAIN.

And YEAH I KNOW BUT HE FEELS BAD because he genuinely does care about his senpai. His big, derpy, sensitive, dorky, impulsive senpai. <3 POWER BOTTOM TOMOYA NAGASE IS A THING NOW OKAY. ~~and I love the name you had on LJ with 'professional cock rider' because seriously every time I see it, it makes me laugh~~

I WILL DO MY BEST. Sympathies on the tiredness, I work full time and have insomnia soooooo sleep isn't really a thing as much as it should be. The exams will finish for you eventually! And help you get the future you want~

Personal interest? And work? Both? HAH. I'm supposed to write this paper about visiting some archive and I chose film because it's a passion, so. I'm a selfish shit who only wants to restore Junior TOKIO shows, I'm ngl. >___>

NOBODY RIDES DICK LIKE TOMO RIDES DICK OK i'm 200% convinced he's just a slut for having anything inside him, literally anything, and he's probably a dick taking version of a marathon runner. bless him. I always talk about my love for the contrasting characters of Sho and Tomo but whenever you call him impulsive I just go *SOB* HIS EMOTIONS ARE JUST ALL OVER THE PLACE PLEASE

GOOD LUCK TO U TOO!! YO!! being insomniac is the worst lmao im always awake at ass o'clock like "ohhhhh my god i have to sleep now so im not tired tomorrow" BUT DO I EVER LISTEN TO MYSELF? NOPE. rip

Ehhhh, well, it's awesome that you get to combine personal interest with studying! What's the course you're doing, if you don't mind me asking? I wish I could go back and study something, I kind of miss it. ~~maybe actually get off my ass and learn Japanese properly? I dunno.~~ And that's a good enough motivation as any!

AHAHAHA OMG that phrase is just gold. THE MARATHON RUNNER OF DICK. I get the impression with Sho and Tomo that Sho acts more mature even though he's the younger one (being more organised, having a very professional public persona, being more restrained in both his public and private lives) and Tomo just does his thing more enthusiastically and openly and it throws Sho off guard sometimes because he's like "My polite upbringing did not teach me how to deal appropriately with how to react to this big playful kitty-cat"

ME NEITHER. I get up at 4:30am here most days and I'm like "Hmm, I should go to sleep before 10pm the night before" but do I ever? NO. :| ~~the internet never closes~~ Or I wake up at 3am and start thinking about all the mistakes I've ever made and that's when I watch jdramas and variety shows to shut my brain up.

I'm in Library and Information Science, which is pretty much the science of making information easily accessible for all? Or at least that's the easiest way I can put it? I'll be majoring especially in Information Technology and Records/Archives, so! :D I used to be in Computer Science which made me miserable, then I moved and it turns out Lib/Info Science is actually my fucking passion (archives especially--DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY VHS TAPES OF TOKIO I'VE CONVERTED TO DIGITAL FORMAT) and I'm just having a lot of fun.

YO IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO STUDY!! And you can always do self-study? With Japanese I just learned by consuming TOKIO material and somehow picked up the language through watching the DASH and Mentore regularly and IT SOUNDS WILD BUT YOU REALLY LEARN JUST FROM EXPOSURE. You'll just need some extra effort for Kanji, which I never really put in, so my Kanji is probably still at grade school level. 8D

"Big playful kitty-cat" *slams fists on desk rhythmically* TOM! WITH! NEKO! ACCESSORIES! but in all seriousness I'm pretty sure that's how it must be in real life, omfg. Tomo's just here showing Sho the majestic qualities and artistry of standing atop of an abandoned apartment complex and Sho is like "I would literally never go here in my entire life if not for you" and Tomo's just :D!:D!:D! "That's why I'll take pictures of us!"

are you me.............. i keep waking up in the middle of my sleep to have existential crises JESUS

Wow, that's pretty cool! That sounds interesting as well as giving you lots of career options when you're done studying! (I watched the 'Tokyo Friend Park' episode today, by the way - was that one you converted from an old VHS tape?)

THANK YOU! I'll admit that after about a year of watching jdramas and listening to jpop/jrock music I've already absorbed a lot of the language already, so I should probably teach myself Katakana and Hiragana next. I'm always super-impressed when people can do two or three languages or more.

...is this a photoshoot I should know about or a reference to Tomo in his dramas ALWAYS STANDING ON TOP OF APARTMENT BLOCKS FOR SOME REASON. Either way Sho needs to get him a collar with a little tag on it which says 'Tomoya' with Sho's phone number on it, y/y?

MOST NIGHTS. My body is apparently incapable of sleeping for more than five hours at a time without waking me up to remind me how I fucked up some completely inconsequential thing like ten years ago. It's great.

~~Thank you for existing though~~

Naw, I got TFP from someone else, but a bunch of my old vids with pre-debut TOKIO are VHS rips. That and my tapes of this super old game show TOKIO would often guest in ~~even though I've only digitised the MaboNaga episodes I'M SORRY GOD~~

Yo, just write the hiragana characters over and over. XD I suggest going like, maybe 8 sets a week? (One set = all the vowel versions of a consonant, i.e. Ka + ki + ku + ke + ko = 1 set (K).) Four? Two? The pacing is up to you. :3 Just don't stress yourself out doing it, y'know?

AND IDK, TOMO'S JUST A FAN OF URBAN EXPLORATION OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. He's into photography so he likes taking pix of random artsy shit no-one else cares about so people end up seeing him in random spots of Yokohama/Shibuya. XD BUT YES, WHAT, SHO COLLARING HIM. WHAT? I'LL CRY

I'm happy you exist too. )': But shit I totally know what you mean ;dk;shdg I REMEMBER SO MANY TINY USELESS MISTAKES OR EMBARRASSING MOMENTS OR JUST GENERAL SMALL SCREW-UPS THAT AFFECTED NO-ONE DETRIMENTALLY AND THEN WHEN THEY POP UP I START TO FEEL BAD AND GO "OHHHHH GOD I WAS AN IDIOT" wow i hate that so much jesus

DON'T BE SORRY FOR HAVING A PASSION. I'm still coming around to the MaboNaga, give me time! TFP was a good starter though.

DUDE, YOU'RE FUCKING SHITTING ME. I've been into urbexing for years and I've followed a couple of Japanese haikyo pages and European urbex sites for so long, and I've even visited a few abandoned places and taken a shitload of artsy photos myself! XD

AND YES SHO COLLARING HIM. He needs to be kept on a leash so he doesn't run off and hurt himself.

Yay, mutual existence happiness~ ~~but lying awake at 3am feeling shitty can fuck right off~~

Mabo was so cute in TFP. ;_; Constantly picking Tomo to be on his team so NOBODY ELSE COULD GET HIM. And I really loved Tomo's obsession to go to fucking Papua New Guinea and how at first the entire TOKIO was like WHAT THE FUCK and Mabo eventually went "ok I'll try to win Papua for you you idiot". ~~no i didnt sub tfp just for the mabnag what~~

I'M NOT KIDDING U THO APPARENTLY U AND TOM HAVE SIMILAR HOBBIES???? I find it interesting as a concept but can't do it in practise because there's a high chance I'll be murdered and murder is legal here now so. :|

fuck u i love the concept of tom with a leash what the HELL

YES THE MABONAGA IN TFP WAS ADORABLE. That bit where they're on the bike and Mabo is holding onto Tomo from behind is just D'AWWWWW. And did you see Tomo playfully nudging Mabo with his elbow in the background during that game where they had to press the buttons for the songs? (I forget the name, sorry! And I think it was during Leader's turn? I'm not home yet so I can't check on my laptop.)

I've never been on my own - I got lucky and stumbled across a few, a couple randomly while I was in Poland. I'd be scared of bumping into drug addicts or something. :| You're in the Phillipines, right? Yeah, I've heard there's some... interesting stuff going on. I have a few online friends out there from the Facebook comms I'm in for Arashi. Hang in there, man. We know your politicians are NOT you.

....Sho can take Tomo for secluded walks and of course train him and punish him if he misbehave and of course he gets rewarded with treats if he's good

MFMFMFMFFM I REMEMBER. The best thing about them, for me, is that all their chemistry isn't derived from fanservice at all and is just literally how they act around each other all the time. ;_; Tomo has this tendency to lean towards Mabo when they sit with each other, they cross entire rooms just to high-five, when they're out in public Mabo walks with his arm around Tomo's waist while Tomo points out random things on the street ("LOOK AT THAT DOG" "Mabo there's a sale on onions today" "THE SUN IS SO BRIGHT"), and IDK MAN THE WHOLE BEST FRIENDS WHO'RE INTIMATE AND TELL EACH OTHER SECRETS NO-ONE ELSE KNOWS MURDERS ME. They're just so comfy and happy when they're together and it's the worst. did you know tomo joined janizu because he saw mabo on tv that is. Literally the only reason

I'm hanging, ahaha. I hate to say I'm desensitised to seeing people die in front of me, but that's... it. Once I was on the way to school and there was a red light and this guy in a car just shot this other dude on a motorcycle right in the head and it was. Just. Nobody even said anything or called the police or whatever and the murderer is apparently still at large as far as the newspaper coverage on it is concerned. NICE.

UM...............I'M...................................so into sakurase petplay that is.....................like can you imagine sho's training regime, i bet it would be. quite comprehensive and strict htank sy ou

HNNNGH I DID NOT KNOW THIS, THAT IS ACTUALLY THE BEST. Even if there isn't actually any romance between them, even in the worst case scenario that MaboNaga is not actually real, it sounds like they are still BFFS and really close anyway and that's fantastic.

HOLY FUCKING SHIT, MAN, WHAT THE HELL. :| That's awful. That just brings out my inner protective seme and I wanna make sure you're okay and stuff. Even if you feel desensitised that's still the kind of shit that's gonna stick with you.

...now I'm thinking 'Kimi wa Tomo'. ~~Sho just sitting on the sofa while Tomo lies with his head on his lap, just stroking at Tomo's hair absent-mindedly while he reads a book~~

mabnags are at a level of closeness that surpasses the whole friend/lover/dingding stuff, anyway. :| i love them on all levels--the best friendship, the possible lovership ("i wanna be mabo's wife! i wanna take care of him!" "tomo's my boy, you know? when we get married we'll have a secret ceremony nobody'll attend, and it'll be okay because at least we know it happened"), the fact that they get jealous whenever the other is being particularly close to anyone else... ;sdlfl;sdhg??

it's funny that they attached so quickly too, like mabo attended tomo's audition and tomo was like "OH GOD IT'S MATSUOKAKUN FROM THE TV" and mabo just thought tomo was super cute with his red cheeks and his beige shirt and stole him immediately. AND TORTURED HIM, ADMITTEDLY, but also made tomo smile and laugh and have more confidence in himself, and also fucking fought janizu to ensure tomo would be part of tokio... and it's thanks to him that tomo no longer is scared of everything and is only scared of the dark/heights/loud noises/misc things like chicken skin. :|a TOMO USED TO SKIP SCHOOL ON PUBLIC SPEAKING DAYS BECAUSE THEY'D MAKE HIM PUKE... and when there were health check-ups he'd also stay home from school because doctors made him cry and i just ;lskdfl;sdl;f;lsdglskdl;g

And yeah it's a hard thing to wash away. To forget? Like, I dunno, I don't really scream or freak out any more (which is scary), but it's not that I'm okay with seeing it? it's a weird state of mind to be in. :3rz I don't go outside as much as I used to, back before our current President was elected.

IS THAT A REFERENCE TO THAT ONE JUN DRAMA I NEVER WATCHED IVE NEVER ACTUALLY SEEN IT BUT IM FINE WITH THIS IMAGE

fklljhjhfj;asfhfh;afh; OKAY SOLD AGAIN. These MaboNaga stories are fucking killing me! I just want to look after Tomo now, he is a precious little cinnamon roll who is too good for this world. <3

You can be desensitised to something yet still find it really disturbing, right? I wish you didn't have to see that shit. And being scared to even go outside, fuck, that's bad. I've vaguely been following the politics out there but that's even worse than I realised. Please be okay. Sorry I can't do more to help. :(

YES IT IS. I love Kimi wa Petto ~~even though I find the female lead's face really annoying~~ because on the surface it seems like a cute romantic comedy but the more you think about it the more fucked-up it becomes.

thank you for your positive thoughts towards me!! all i can do is keep truckin' hahah, but i really want this damn president to be impeached already

TOMO SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO WALK OUTSIDE ON HIS OWN. >:( seriously though, i just wanna feed him and make sure he sleeps enough and to cheer him up when he's all self-loathing and paranoid. I DON'T GET WHY BABY HAS TO BE LIKE THIS AND YET.....................

one day i'm gonna write some mabnag post that's just outlining their crazy and unbelievable history wtf... like how do y'all be best pals for 27 years like that

Is MJ not consensually her pet or something

Ugh, I don't blame you. Just following what's happening is terrifying enough, never mind having to live through that shit. I JUST WANT YOU TO BE OKAY. Because you're really cool and I care. SO THERE. ~~gaaaaaaaay~~

YOU HAVE MADE ME SO PROTECTIVE TOWARDS TOMO, WHYYYYY

DUDE, FUCKIN' DO IT. I'd certainly read it, for a start! And I bet there are other TOKIO fans out there who'd love to read it too. Tell me all the details of the MaboNaga lovin'. ALL OF 'EM.

Nah, it is consensual, but it does that jdrama thing of nobody ever actually talks about their fucking feelings and they all lie to everyone else about everything and this woman has Jun living as a pet in her house and tells people she has a pet dog and when the guy she wants to date comes to visit Jun has to hide and make dog noises and it's just like WTF. (I do like Jun in it, though. And it gave me fic/kink ideas, soooooooo)

~~GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY~~ ;_; thanks man

fuk u if ur default mode ISNT "protect this giant weenie at all times" then ur either LYING or WRONG or BOTH

;aldks;sl;lsdg,,, I'LL WRITE THE POST SOMEDAY I SWEAR... but in the meantime if you're interested you should seriously download the MabNag DASH crap I've uploaded.....like you'll see how natural their chemistry is and all, it's honestly so pure and good............they're gonna have a new DASH episode come out this Sunday, and I'm so pumped because these idiots are gonna MAKE A GIANT FUCKING SNOWBALL because they're self-proclaimed "snowball experts" and i'm like WHY

I'M LAUGHING AT JUN MAKING DOG NOISES LMAO JESUS. i can't seem to be able to handle looking at him for extended periods of time though, so it's like. :|a well. EVEN IF IT INVOLVES PET SCENARIOS AND I AM A SUCKER FOR THOSE that's why i have my crappy doodles and my even crappier writing ~~but there was one mabonaga drama SP where mabo's character pretty much takes tomo into his home as a dog he forces to sleep in the attic~~

HAHAHA I LOVE HOW YOU SAY THAT AS THOUGH I HAVEN'T ALREADY BEEN THROUGH AND DOWNLOADED ALL OF THE DASH EPISODES ON YOUR JOURNAL ALREADY *shifty eyes* I just haven't had time to watch them yet ~~you do realise 'snowballing' is a slang term for swapping body fluids with your mouth after a blowjob right~~

Jun is my second favourite member of Arashi, so. ^^ In fact he used to be my favourite member, but then I realised how much of a sadistic, manipulative little shit Sho is, and I saw the error of my ways. SHUT the FUCK UP MAN, YOUR DOODLES ARE HOT AF and you already know how much I love your writing ~~and wait what, which one was that~~

honestly if mabo doesn't make tomo swallow his own come then what's the fucking point BUT I............. WELL. I should sub more DASH, seriously, but it always takes so much time because I'm deaf and TOKIO and the announcer talk so much ;LSKDJDF

I loved Jun back when I was still into Arashi, but after he shot to fame with his dramas and stuff, and then Arashi shot to fame in general, he seems to have changed... a lot? I DUNNO. It's weird, when I read his interviews or see him on shows and stuff it sounds like he's talking in the way he assumes people are supposed to talk or something... like it's so not real... ~~i'm probably not making sense~~

the mabnag drama sp was a kindaichi vs akechi special and it was so fucking cute......mabo plays this prim and proper, rich as hell guy, who is in control and sleek and fantastic and tomo plays this poor and smelly happy detective who just falls for mabo's dude at first sight and calls him by first name and what the hell ever and they team up and its glorious AND THEY FIT MY BELOVED TROPE OF "happy loving tennenboke who would fucking die for his partner" and "nobody can know that i love this happy loving tennenboke ever but i would die for him too"

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how does one blush loudly

i don't even know but i'll give it a try, okay

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