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MY........ MY WRITING STYLE IS DECENT?? i haven't written in so long though so i'm just kinda floundering around like yayayayayayayayayaayyaa \:D/ I BET YOU WON'T SUCK THOUGH, REALLY, DON'T WORRY. let's just do ridiculous things~~~~~

and here look at these gifs b/c it's your fault that i made them >:'(

I NEVER FELT PRESSURED NO, I did those things 'cause I wanted to. :Dd I'm cool, yo. AND HEY, YOU KNOW, FUNNY STORY, I'm FtM trans too! \o/ And Tomo's been my role model since I was a kid (the whole TOKIO, actually, but kid!me really looked up to Tomo the most and now that I'm older I feel maybe I'm leaning more towards Tatsuya who's mentally ill but doing his fucking best), so I definitely understand where you're coming from. Almost too much. XD It's really funny how life turns out sometimes.

IT'S MORE THAN DECENT! It's like... proper punctuation and spelling and long paragraphs and do you know how much I treasure those kind of RP replies ;_______;

I'm not gonna apologise for being responsible for those gifs! *furiously saves them* I'm actually watching that episode right now ~~why is Funassyi bowling whilst dressed as Sherlock Holmes~~

HAHAHA WHAT. Y'know, it's weird, I kind of had this feeling that you might be FtM, but it'd be rude to just come out and ask it, right? XD Tomo's one of the reasons I came out in the first place, seeing his confidence and the way he's just "Fuck it, I'm doing things like this!" I get you on how you feel about Tatsuya though, being trans comes with its own whole load of issues as well as having anxiety and depression anyway, soooooo. If you ever wanna chat or just need someone to talk to about things, hit me up. ~~And let's be a couple of shameless, terrible, Tomo-shipping TOKIO guys together~~

The fact that you're awed by punctuation and spelling really makes me wonder what horror stories of RP you might have had going on... ( ´_ゝ`) BUT I'M GLAD YOU LIKE IT.

Funassyi is a god damn gift to this earth, wtf. Every time he does anything I'm like "THAT'S ME", especially when they put the mic to his eye akhaldhakdjak I LAUGHED SO HARD??? But also Tomo constantly trying to cheat to get points is so fucking cute he's so RIDIC.

I feel like we all just sort of have this trans radar--my first FtM friend knew I was trans before even I knew I was trans and I was like WHAAAAAAT. But man, Tom and Tatsu have been through hell--Tomo was bullied all the time as a kid for presenting feminine, and then even more when he debuted, and that made him insecure and shy and scared and self-hating )': ~~until Mabo came into his life~~ but something about Tatsuya blew my mind 'cause you literally could NOT tell throughout the years that he's been struggling with mental illness and he only mentioned it last year after his divorce and I was like WHAT... Like I wish I was as strong as him... Unbelievable...

BUT THANKS IT'S
always nice to have friends who get the issues. Like I can never really talk about when the dysphoria gets really bad with anyone 'cause they don't get it?? And it's just. Bleh. When I saw your profile about the time you first added me I was like :''''''''') but it's kinda weird bringing up another person's identity so I just >____>;; kept smiling quietly in my heart aldhakfhakd

Hahaha, God, I've done some bad RPing in my time with people who didn't know how to use commas or even speech marks... I don't wanna sound like an RP elitist though, I'll still RP with people whose grammar and spelling and style isn't fantastic because everyone's gotta start somewhere and I think encouraging others is great. (And of course if someone's first language isn't English, fuck, they're already doing better then me since English is the only language I am fluent in.) But when I find someone who types RP like you do, it is most definitely appreciated. ~~working on a reply now but it may not be done until you're asleep, sorry! I'll try and make it worthwhile to wake up to~~

I LAUGHED LIKE A DRAIN WHEN THEY PUT THE MIC TO FUNASSYI'S EYE. And yeah, Tomo's constant 'LET'S MAKE THIS FAIR!' like with the red bowling pin. YOU ARE A TREASURE TO THIS WORLD, TOMO. <3

Funny you should say that about Tomo getting bullied too... I went to an all-girls' school and I was bullied mercilessly for being so masculine and hating wearing skirts and being into things which supposedly only boys like. I FEEL YOU. And Tatsuya quietly fighting his mental illness, that's fucking admirable. I read about it before I became a TOKIO fan and I have a lot of respect for him because of it.

Awwwww man, seriously, I get it. :| I've been through (and still going through) the self-doubt and the self-hatred and the self-harm, and I'm not saying that to be attention-seeking, I'm just stating it as a fact. Okay, I can't ever know exactly what you've been through or how you're feeling, but if you wanna talk or even rant at me about it, I at least get the dysphoria thing maybe? ~~oh my god aaaaaaaah TOKIO-senpai noticed me~~ fklk;sk;zk;ldk;ldd;z

Edited 2017-03-03 14:10 (UTC)

YO TAKE YOUR TIME WITH THE REPLY!! i'm usually slow as shit too :3rz and man i know what you mean! w/ me i still freak out about grammar and if i use words right and junk--being esl is hard! and i guess i don't really notice when other folks have problems?? mostly i'm just happy anyone's rping with me. )': but sometimes there're just these writers... and i'm like (´；ω；`) how could u ever find me worthy of being ur partner...

pot pot pot PIN pot pot also killed me like sldjakfjalfhakd team fragile was a good episode and tomo was such a b r a t and i loved it so much i couldn't??? and what's with sho remembering when aiba and tomo went for curry. i just. Shokun.......

MMMH thank u for that!! and yea mental health is a whole mess of things but yknow at least we're trucking on :') i'm extending the same thing to u tho of course... i'm a dumb kid for the most part but i'll always be here to listen if u need it!!

tomo being bullied and made fun of for being feminine seriously made kid!me who was bullied for being a tomboy (and whose relatives hated it all the time) like. really admire him?? a lot. hence me growing up like ;__; i wanna be comfy w/ myself like him!! and tbh tom isn't even totally ok yet, his self-esteem is awful especially... but he's trying and that's enough to admire. because trying is all we can do >__< blehhhhh i'm so bad with words BUT I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS.

also is tokio senpai me??? WHAT IS THIS

Thanks dude, I really appreciate the offer of you being there. :) I gotta be honest, it's been fandom which has keep me going over the past few months so you've already helped with that. ~~not such a dumb kid after all~~ I GET THOSE FEELINGS TOO. I wanna be comfortable with myself as well and it's not gonna be easy for us but we can do it. Channel that inner badass Nagase. FUCK YOU, I AIN'T DONE YET. I GOT A LIGHT.

My replies are kind of delayed as I'm spending time with my partner this weekend (they're genderfluid, biologically female yet often present as male) and I'm watching a load of TOKIO stuff with them ~~and I have converted them to Tomo as well, look what you've done~~ :| And I can't do proper RP replies when Nagase-sama is on the screen, it's too distracting, hhhngh. As for that previous comment about me being powerful for being sexual like Tomo (still the greatest thing ever to say, thank you) - you can still be a powerful asexual, y'know? Having a sex drive doesn't make me any better or stronger. POWER ASEXUAL LANCE

Your English is pretty much PERFECT. It's better than a lot of people I know who have English as a first and only language. I'm shit with numbers but generally good with words, and like... your stuff is so easy to read. I know what you mean about being in awe when you RP with certain people though! Which is why I wanna try my best when I RP with you, so I can be a Sho who is worthy of his Nagase-senpai~

~~YES YOU ARE TOKIO-SENPAI TO ME OKAY.~~ You've been in the fandom for years and you do so many subs and you're teaching me so much about them! ~~sorry if that's weird~~

power asexual lance ahahahaha!! thanks :') being ace sometimes makes it difficult thinking about the future--MY future, romantically, or whatever you wanna call it and it's. yeah. i mean fundamentally i know it doesn't make me any more or less.. anything, but the insecurity is still there sometimes ( ´_ゝ`) the mind is an awful thing

i dont mind being called tokiosenpai tho it makes me feel good ffffffhhfh ive dedicated too much of my life to these six morons idek what i'm doing any more if not loving tokio at all hours :3rz save me

SUPER JEALOUS your partner watches all that stuff w/ u tho omg!! my ex haaaaated tomo cos he made her feel inadequate or something and she kept thinking i loved him more than her and relaying it now makes me realise how nuts that whole situation was but. love sure is blinding. they sound super cool tho, ur partner, and im glad y'all have been overdosing on the tomo junk. like. GOOD.

but seriously don't sweat abt the rp stuff!! it's supposed to be low pressure stress relief stuff anyway, so :8)))) AND JEEZ i'm sure you'll be fine shhhhshshshshshshshh UR ALREADY A COOL SHOKUN FOR YER NAGASESENPAI DONT WORRY.

Oh yeah, you can know something logically, but that doesn't stop your brain doing the crazy flailing anxiety thing where you overthink everything and basically just implode into a small, tangled-up ball of worry. Believe me when I say, though, that I don't think being ace makes you any less important or weak or flawed ~~and that's coming from someone with a sex drive that's so fired-up I would probably fuck a door if there wasn't anything else available~~

...besides, just having a sex drive makes things more complicated sometimes. Like I think with my pants and it just causes a whole load more problems, hahaha.

~~yes you are my TOKIO-senpai and I am relieved to know you are okay with that, i won't save you but please drag me down with you kthnx~~

Sorry, I didn't wanna make you feel shitty bringing up my partner when I know you've only recently had a messy break-up. Mainly I just wanted to say I am so excited about doing this RP and it's really important to me but this is why I am delayed in replying at the moment. That's so crappy that your ex wasn't into Tomo or watching TOKIO stuff with you - I'd say she had bad taste but she must have liked you, so she did have some good taste in men somewhere, right? *stupid grin* You deserve to find someone awesome who treats you well and can watch TOKIO with you and encourage your 'shipping and your passion, because having passion for something in this world is so damn important.

Like I don't know where things will go with me and my partner - it's a long-distance thing and to be honest I got together with them in the first place because I was thinking with my pants ~~i am a dog in heat~~ but we'll see.

As for the RP... I'm also kind of 'Aaaaah, he knows so much more about JE history than I do!' So I apologise in advance if I get details wrong about Sho and things like that, but please feel free to correct me if I make any major mistakes which don't make sense!

*BLUSHES LOUDLY* N-NAGASE-SENPAI IS TOO KIND~

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:| i hope u like hell because ive been trapped in tokio hell for over a decade and its TIRING. I know you're like "HOW DOES HE KNOW SO MUCH JANIZU HISTORY" and quite frankly I wish I didn't, but somehow TOKIO is daisenpai now and that means I know a whole crapton of shit. Like my brain is a depository for information that ISN'T EVEN THAT IMPORTANT TO ME but I guess it comes in handy for when I wanna RP flashback things like this. :3c

BUT SERIOUSLY DON'T WORRY ABOUT LATE REPLIES OR SHITTY REPLIES OR WHAT NOT because like. Y'know. Low stress stuff. I'M SUPER EXCITED TO BE ABLE TO WRITE TOMO AGAIN TOO JSYK and the fact that it's Sakurase makes me like oooooooooooooooh my goooooooooooooooood

d;skfd;gk I don't feel bad though! It's just funny how things keep popping up to make me realise how unhealthy/terrible that relationship was, and now I'm just sort of like. JEEZ. What took me so long to realise it. I mean, I gotta admit there were good points, but like comparing to the bad points...

Nothing wrong with thinking with your pants, I think, but the term "fuck a door" is really funny to hear HAHAH. My ex and I were long-distance too, the first long-distance I ever had?? And she, too, had an intense sex drive which apparently my sadistic dominant self satisfied through commands spoken over the telephone. :|a IDK, I tend not to think too seriously about relationships until it's been a while, but if you're having fun with your partner and they're being good to you then it's just nice to appreciate something for what it is. :3a

My problem ~~special ability?~~ is that when I get into a fandom, I don't just get into a fandom, I FUCKING JUMP IN BOTH FEET FIRST AND GO COMPLETELY MAD AND GET OBSSESSED and go crazy and write a shit-ton of fanfic and everything, so, yeah. Is it that kind of Hell? Because I am entirely comfortable and used to that kind of Hell. :| By all means please keep the random TOKIO facts coming! I find them entertaining and interesting ~~and they make my shitty little life that much better by knowing them, hahaha~~

THANK YOU I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM ACTUALLY WRITING SHO lfkljkpkjkj;kj;;;; It's taking me a little while to really get into the swing of writing as him but it's SO MUCH FUN. Apologies if I make mistakes with honorifics and things too - I'm guessing he knows Tomoya well enough to refer to him by his first name and not call him 'Nagase-san' in private? I love Sakurase, fucking hell, this is giving me some seriously hot mental images too so it's your fault just as much as mine THANK YOU

Just as long as you're okay, yeah? Look after yourself, make sure you actually eat and drink and shower and rest and stuff. Self-care is SO FUCKING IMPORTANT and you need to remember that you're an awesome person and you deserve to feel looked-after and shit. I think it's healthy that you can look back and see the bad things and realise it wasn't a great relationship, but try and focus on positive stuff and don't get too hung up on it if you can.

~~You did phone stuff? See, I think THAT'S pretty intense and powerful~~ I've had a few long-distance relationships (including intercontinental ones) so yeah, I reckon you're right. As long as you're both happy and having a good time, just have fun.

THE TOKIO FACTS ARE VITAL TO ME the unvital things are the other random Janizu shit I've picked up over the years like WHY DO I RETAIN THIS INFORMATION ;lsdkfj Man, I totally have no clue what it's like to jump into any fandom headfirst any more because all my life has been dedicated to the old instrument-playing men--it's like, in my miserable little life nobody else can compare after exposure to them. LMFAO';ksdfjdg

AND YEAH, I don't think Sho even calls him Nagase-san at work? It's just Nagase-kun, right? Janizu has this weird hierarchy thing where -san is the highest of the high (hence everyone calling Matchy "Matchy-san"), while -kun is used for senpai who aren't necessarily super duper higher than you but are still your senpai and you gotta show the difference. Which is why I find it amazing that Tomo calls Sho "Sho-kun" like legit... and Toshi "Ohno-kun" which means apparently Toshi is an even higher level than Sho? Since it's last name? LIKE WHY. but tangent aside the whole thing is great THE RP IS PAINFULLY CUTE RN WITH THE WHOLE CATCHING UP THING TOO and your sho is just fiiiiiiiine... when i think about the fact that sho's still super young in the scenario i start to weep because man it has been so LONG

Thanks--I'm doing well for the most part! More than being hung up on the past it's more like I go "smh" at a lot of things. Love is blinding. OR SOMETHING CHEESY LIKE THAT. I've been doing a lot better now emotionally even though physically (i.e. WORK AND SCHOOL) have been monumentally worse. BUT THAT'S LIFE I GUESS.

~~HALF THE TIME I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING WHEN I DIRTY TALK BUT I GUESS IT WORKS........................................rip me~~

They may be old men with guitars (and drums, and a keyboard, and microphones and shit) but dammit they're important old men with guitars so of course they're gonna make other groups pale in comparison. IT'S COOL. Your dedication is admirable as fuck, man.

Ah, see, that's a thing about honorifics with JE that I didn't know! And now you've pointed it out I'm seeing it in the variety shows and it makes a lot more sense. THANK YOU AGAIN and GOD DAMMIT POWER BOTTOM TOMOYA NAGASE I am getting all these RP feels now from Nagase being protective and interested in how Sho's doing and still caring and then Sho has to go and fuck things up by asking about HER

Yeah, I gather you've been working your ass off with things. GOOD LUCK WITH EXAMS AND SHIT! Love isn't only blinding, it can numb your other senses too or something else equally cheesy. Fuck, I'm not really sure where I was going with this. BASICALLY PLEASE CONTINUE TO BE OKAY. <3

DUDE, IT'S LIKE I SAID, THE ACE FRIENDS I KNOW ARE ALSO THE ONES WHO HAVE THE SMUTTIEST MINDS and also you write smut well, so there. You don't have to wanna do stuff in person to be good at thinking it or writing about it

HAHAHA, I WONDER. Yesterday I went to this national film archive and they talked about these programs to restore old videos and films, and literally the first thought that came to mind was "I could use this to make TOKIO's 1994 concert HD." LIKE....................

LISTEN, SHO DIDN'T MEAN TO. And Tomo can't necessarily lie and say everything's gonna be okay BECAUSE IT'S NOT and he's just too scared to break-up with her ~~the tomo + ayu relationship was so fucked up, man~~ and. RIP. :'( He lov u tho, Sho-kun, you're his precious friend On another note though I love how you keep using his full name like POWER BOTTOM TOMOYA NAGASE ;sdkjslhf A LONG TIME AGO MY BLOG TITLE WAS "ULTIMATE BOTTOM TOMOYA NAGASE" AND IT JUST MAKES ME LAUGH ALL THE TIME

I'LL BE OKAY DFLHDGD THANKS FOR BEING SO NICE TO ME!!!!!! i'm just sleepy a lot is the worst thing about me recently, the exams aren't too bad :x I HOPE U CONTINUE 2 BE OK TOO

Ah, that's cool! Was that for work or personal interest? 'Cause either way that sounds really interesting. OH MAN, IF WE COULD MAKE STUFF HD, THERE ARE SO MANY JE SHOWS FROM THE EARLY 90's WE COULD BRING TO THE WORLD AGAIN.

And YEAH I KNOW BUT HE FEELS BAD because he genuinely does care about his senpai. His big, derpy, sensitive, dorky, impulsive senpai. <3 POWER BOTTOM TOMOYA NAGASE IS A THING NOW OKAY. ~~and I love the name you had on LJ with 'professional cock rider' because seriously every time I see it, it makes me laugh~~

I WILL DO MY BEST. Sympathies on the tiredness, I work full time and have insomnia soooooo sleep isn't really a thing as much as it should be. The exams will finish for you eventually! And help you get the future you want~

Personal interest? And work? Both? HAH. I'm supposed to write this paper about visiting some archive and I chose film because it's a passion, so. I'm a selfish shit who only wants to restore Junior TOKIO shows, I'm ngl. >___>

NOBODY RIDES DICK LIKE TOMO RIDES DICK OK i'm 200% convinced he's just a slut for having anything inside him, literally anything, and he's probably a dick taking version of a marathon runner. bless him. I always talk about my love for the contrasting characters of Sho and Tomo but whenever you call him impulsive I just go *SOB* HIS EMOTIONS ARE JUST ALL OVER THE PLACE PLEASE

GOOD LUCK TO U TOO!! YO!! being insomniac is the worst lmao im always awake at ass o'clock like "ohhhhh my god i have to sleep now so im not tired tomorrow" BUT DO I EVER LISTEN TO MYSELF? NOPE. rip

Ehhhh, well, it's awesome that you get to combine personal interest with studying! What's the course you're doing, if you don't mind me asking? I wish I could go back and study something, I kind of miss it. ~~maybe actually get off my ass and learn Japanese properly? I dunno.~~ And that's a good enough motivation as any!

AHAHAHA OMG that phrase is just gold. THE MARATHON RUNNER OF DICK. I get the impression with Sho and Tomo that Sho acts more mature even though he's the younger one (being more organised, having a very professional public persona, being more restrained in both his public and private lives) and Tomo just does his thing more enthusiastically and openly and it throws Sho off guard sometimes because he's like "My polite upbringing did not teach me how to deal appropriately with how to react to this big playful kitty-cat"

ME NEITHER. I get up at 4:30am here most days and I'm like "Hmm, I should go to sleep before 10pm the night before" but do I ever? NO. :| ~~the internet never closes~~ Or I wake up at 3am and start thinking about all the mistakes I've ever made and that's when I watch jdramas and variety shows to shut my brain up.

I'm in Library and Information Science, which is pretty much the science of making information easily accessible for all? Or at least that's the easiest way I can put it? I'll be majoring especially in Information Technology and Records/Archives, so! :D I used to be in Computer Science which made me miserable, then I moved and it turns out Lib/Info Science is actually my fucking passion (archives especially--DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY VHS TAPES OF TOKIO I'VE CONVERTED TO DIGITAL FORMAT) and I'm just having a lot of fun.

YO IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO STUDY!! And you can always do self-study? With Japanese I just learned by consuming TOKIO material and somehow picked up the language through watching the DASH and Mentore regularly and IT SOUNDS WILD BUT YOU REALLY LEARN JUST FROM EXPOSURE. You'll just need some extra effort for Kanji, which I never really put in, so my Kanji is probably still at grade school level. 8D

"Big playful kitty-cat" *slams fists on desk rhythmically* TOM! WITH! NEKO! ACCESSORIES! but in all seriousness I'm pretty sure that's how it must be in real life, omfg. Tomo's just here showing Sho the majestic qualities and artistry of standing atop of an abandoned apartment complex and Sho is like "I would literally never go here in my entire life if not for you" and Tomo's just :D!:D!:D! "That's why I'll take pictures of us!"

are you me.............. i keep waking up in the middle of my sleep to have existential crises JESUS

Wow, that's pretty cool! That sounds interesting as well as giving you lots of career options when you're done studying! (I watched the 'Tokyo Friend Park' episode today, by the way - was that one you converted from an old VHS tape?)

THANK YOU! I'll admit that after about a year of watching jdramas and listening to jpop/jrock music I've already absorbed a lot of the language already, so I should probably teach myself Katakana and Hiragana next. I'm always super-impressed when people can do two or three languages or more.

...is this a photoshoot I should know about or a reference to Tomo in his dramas ALWAYS STANDING ON TOP OF APARTMENT BLOCKS FOR SOME REASON. Either way Sho needs to get him a collar with a little tag on it which says 'Tomoya' with Sho's phone number on it, y/y?

MOST NIGHTS. My body is apparently incapable of sleeping for more than five hours at a time without waking me up to remind me how I fucked up some completely inconsequential thing like ten years ago. It's great.

~~Thank you for existing though~~

Naw, I got TFP from someone else, but a bunch of my old vids with pre-debut TOKIO are VHS rips. That and my tapes of this super old game show TOKIO would often guest in ~~even though I've only digitised the MaboNaga episodes I'M SORRY GOD~~

Yo, just write the hiragana characters over and over. XD I suggest going like, maybe 8 sets a week? (One set = all the vowel versions of a consonant, i.e. Ka + ki + ku + ke + ko = 1 set (K).) Four? Two? The pacing is up to you. :3 Just don't stress yourself out doing it, y'know?

AND IDK, TOMO'S JUST A FAN OF URBAN EXPLORATION OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. He's into photography so he likes taking pix of random artsy shit no-one else cares about so people end up seeing him in random spots of Yokohama/Shibuya. XD BUT YES, WHAT, SHO COLLARING HIM. WHAT? I'LL CRY

I'm happy you exist too. )': But shit I totally know what you mean ;dk;shdg I REMEMBER SO MANY TINY USELESS MISTAKES OR EMBARRASSING MOMENTS OR JUST GENERAL SMALL SCREW-UPS THAT AFFECTED NO-ONE DETRIMENTALLY AND THEN WHEN THEY POP UP I START TO FEEL BAD AND GO "OHHHHH GOD I WAS AN IDIOT" wow i hate that so much jesus

DON'T BE SORRY FOR HAVING A PASSION. I'm still coming around to the MaboNaga, give me time! TFP was a good starter though.

DUDE, YOU'RE FUCKING SHITTING ME. I've been into urbexing for years and I've followed a couple of Japanese haikyo pages and European urbex sites for so long, and I've even visited a few abandoned places and taken a shitload of artsy photos myself! XD

AND YES SHO COLLARING HIM. He needs to be kept on a leash so he doesn't run off and hurt himself.

Yay, mutual existence happiness~ ~~but lying awake at 3am feeling shitty can fuck right off~~

Mabo was so cute in TFP. ;_; Constantly picking Tomo to be on his team so NOBODY ELSE COULD GET HIM. And I really loved Tomo's obsession to go to fucking Papua New Guinea and how at first the entire TOKIO was like WHAT THE FUCK and Mabo eventually went "ok I'll try to win Papua for you you idiot". ~~no i didnt sub tfp just for the mabnag what~~

I'M NOT KIDDING U THO APPARENTLY U AND TOM HAVE SIMILAR HOBBIES???? I find it interesting as a concept but can't do it in practise because there's a high chance I'll be murdered and murder is legal here now so. :|

fuck u i love the concept of tom with a leash what the HELL

YES THE MABONAGA IN TFP WAS ADORABLE. That bit where they're on the bike and Mabo is holding onto Tomo from behind is just D'AWWWWW. And did you see Tomo playfully nudging Mabo with his elbow in the background during that game where they had to press the buttons for the songs? (I forget the name, sorry! And I think it was during Leader's turn? I'm not home yet so I can't check on my laptop.)

I've never been on my own - I got lucky and stumbled across a few, a couple randomly while I was in Poland. I'd be scared of bumping into drug addicts or something. :| You're in the Phillipines, right? Yeah, I've heard there's some... interesting stuff going on. I have a few online friends out there from the Facebook comms I'm in for Arashi. Hang in there, man. We know your politicians are NOT you.

....Sho can take Tomo for secluded walks and of course train him and punish him if he misbehave and of course he gets rewarded with treats if he's good

MFMFMFMFFM I REMEMBER. The best thing about them, for me, is that all their chemistry isn't derived from fanservice at all and is just literally how they act around each other all the time. ;_; Tomo has this tendency to lean towards Mabo when they sit with each other, they cross entire rooms just to high-five, when they're out in public Mabo walks with his arm around Tomo's waist while Tomo points out random things on the street ("LOOK AT THAT DOG" "Mabo there's a sale on onions today" "THE SUN IS SO BRIGHT"), and IDK MAN THE WHOLE BEST FRIENDS WHO'RE INTIMATE AND TELL EACH OTHER SECRETS NO-ONE ELSE KNOWS MURDERS ME. They're just so comfy and happy when they're together and it's the worst. did you know tomo joined janizu because he saw mabo on tv that is. Literally the only reason

I'm hanging, ahaha. I hate to say I'm desensitised to seeing people die in front of me, but that's... it. Once I was on the way to school and there was a red light and this guy in a car just shot this other dude on a motorcycle right in the head and it was. Just. Nobody even said anything or called the police or whatever and the murderer is apparently still at large as far as the newspaper coverage on it is concerned. NICE.

UM...............I'M...................................so into sakurase petplay that is.....................like can you imagine sho's training regime, i bet it would be. quite comprehensive and strict htank sy ou

HNNNGH I DID NOT KNOW THIS, THAT IS ACTUALLY THE BEST. Even if there isn't actually any romance between them, even in the worst case scenario that MaboNaga is not actually real, it sounds like they are still BFFS and really close anyway and that's fantastic.

HOLY FUCKING SHIT, MAN, WHAT THE HELL. :| That's awful. That just brings out my inner protective seme and I wanna make sure you're okay and stuff. Even if you feel desensitised that's still the kind of shit that's gonna stick with you.

...now I'm thinking 'Kimi wa Tomo'. ~~Sho just sitting on the sofa while Tomo lies with his head on his lap, just stroking at Tomo's hair absent-mindedly while he reads a book~~

mabnags are at a level of closeness that surpasses the whole friend/lover/dingding stuff, anyway. :| i love them on all levels--the best friendship, the possible lovership ("i wanna be mabo's wife! i wanna take care of him!" "tomo's my boy, you know? when we get married we'll have a secret ceremony nobody'll attend, and it'll be okay because at least we know it happened"), the fact that they get jealous whenever the other is being particularly close to anyone else... ;sdlfl;sdhg??

it's funny that they attached so quickly too, like mabo attended tomo's audition and tomo was like "OH GOD IT'S MATSUOKAKUN FROM THE TV" and mabo just thought tomo was super cute with his red cheeks and his beige shirt and stole him immediately. AND TORTURED HIM, ADMITTEDLY, but also made tomo smile and laugh and have more confidence in himself, and also fucking fought janizu to ensure tomo would be part of tokio... and it's thanks to him that tomo no longer is scared of everything and is only scared of the dark/heights/loud noises/misc things like chicken skin. :|a TOMO USED TO SKIP SCHOOL ON PUBLIC SPEAKING DAYS BECAUSE THEY'D MAKE HIM PUKE... and when there were health check-ups he'd also stay home from school because doctors made him cry and i just ;lskdfl;sdl;f;lsdglskdl;g

And yeah it's a hard thing to wash away. To forget? Like, I dunno, I don't really scream or freak out any more (which is scary), but it's not that I'm okay with seeing it? it's a weird state of mind to be in. :3rz I don't go outside as much as I used to, back before our current President was elected.

IS THAT A REFERENCE TO THAT ONE JUN DRAMA I NEVER WATCHED IVE NEVER ACTUALLY SEEN IT BUT IM FINE WITH THIS IMAGE

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how does one blush loudly

i don't even know but i'll give it a try, okay

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