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Ugh, tell me about it! I find it so much easier to write messed-up mind games than flowery romance. :|

Ha, Tomo sounds more like me than Sho does! Sho would have his hands full with an unpredictable Tomo probably begging him to do stuff all the time. "But it's not in the schedule for today, goddammit Tomoya!" And he'd pay for it later, of course.

Damn, that just makes me love Tomo even more! Fuck gender norms and expectations from society to be and act a certain way! (I feel very strongly about this and I could go on about it for hours but a TOKIO fan group probably isn't the place for it, hahaha.) Don't hate yourself for writing Sho 'ship fics, it happens to all of us ~~repeatedly~~

Oh yeah, definitely. And when that happened Kouya would make sure to bait Keita into doing it somewhere really public, with CCTV and plenty of people around to take photos. And he'd get one Hell of a kick out of doing it, too.

IDK about easiness--as long as it's shippy, no matter how messed up the ship is, I'll be happy. :|a

tomo would get in trouble just so he could get spanked. that's him. that's this sneaky do-M trying to get what he wants in as subtle a way as he can manage. power bottom tomoya nagase

AND YO DON'T WORRY that is one of my fav things about Tomo, actually. )': He so proudly tells the world he wants to be Mabo's leading lady all the time and people go like "lady!?" and he's like "like a good wife, with a flowery apron" and I always die ;lskdf;lsdjg

KEITA LIFTING HIS BATON ABOUT TO HIT KOUYA
REALISING THERE'RE CAMERAS
AND THEN PUTTING IT DOWN

IS A GOOD IMAGE

jljk;a;a;jokaaalfkflfl;;l;fk I DID NOT REALISE THAT I NEEDED SHO SPANKING TOMO IN MY LIFE UNTIL THIS MOMENT THANK YOU :| ~~I'm sure in time I will imagine other people spanking him too but I'm still new to this TOKIO thing, okay~~

Yep. Definitely liking Tomo more and more, because that's just fucking adorable. Again. I'm seeing more and more what you mean about them not being a Johnny's group and that's fine by me. ~~Also how about Sho buying Tomo some silky panties as a treat and, uh, 'enjoying' them together with him LOOK WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO ME NOW~~

*Kouya calmly pulling out a small pile of photos of Keita accepting bribes and placing it right in front of him as he puts his baton away*

HAVE YOU SEEN HIS ASS... IT'S SO ROUND. LIKE TOMOYA HAS THE LITERAL DEFINITION OF A BUBBLE BUTT AND I'M JUST WEEPING... it deserves to be hit and screwed and eaten, I WANT TO BELIEVE. it will always blow my mind thst he wanted a porn star to fuck him in the ass instead of him fucking her like it aleays makes me laugh but it always makes me "i'm so glad"

ENJOYING... that's such a sho thing though omfg. spoiling with gifts. tom is probably shy the first time it happens because SHOKUN... then decides he's perfectly happy with how all the attention is on him when he wears it. a simple attention whore

being told tko is unlike janizu makes me so :') And it's not that it's 'cause it stinks being a Janizu, the idol thing really works as a product and people just eat it all up, but I really don't like the fact that tko's stuck in the boundaries that being in janizu entails, even though they're not really idols to begin with. i mean the agency fucking abandoned them and leader had to start being their manager, c o m e o n... and even now they're the only group who aren't being allowed to make music and who jstorm just refuse to advertise, and now they sell 25k? copies of a cd vs how janizu groups usually sell 100k+ copies...

I LOVE KEITA FINDING KOUYA AS IRRITATING AS SAWATARI, and then at first being like hahaha listen can't we work around this and when kouya's like "nah" he's just finally gonna kick that son of a bitch cos damn at least yoshimoto dont got real leverage in the world jesus i can hit him if i want

~~GREAT. NOW YOU HAVE ME SEARCHING FOR PICTURES OF HIS ASS. THANKS. :|~~ Hnnngh yes I understand~

The panties are pink and silky. Maybe they have a bit of lace clinging around the edge. And they're bulging nicely, now that he's wearing them and filling every inch. Sho's fingers teasingly stroke at him through the smooth, flimsy fabric as he whispers the other man's name... "Tomoya..."

Well, it's like I said before - I know full well what I'm buying into with Arashi and Kanjani8. It's all choreographed, airbrushed perfection, but at least I know that and I don't expect any different ~~and I don't give a shit about tabloid rumours, whatever.~~ It seems really stupid and unfair that TOKIO don't get more push because they clearly are popular enough to make JE a ton of money!

I just wanna see them constantly trying to outwit each other and dig up more and more secrets to try and get the upper hand, both being smug at each other because they think they've won, only to get knocked back again. ~~I don't even know whether to ship them or not, maybe they just hate each other~~

Did you want to get something started for RP, by the way? Do you normally do it on Dreamwidth? I could create a separate journal for RP or just use this one, I'm easygoing with RP methods. (Totally understand if you're too busy at the moment though - I think you mentioned an exam coming up? But if I can provide some stress relief through RP then I will!)

The image of polite Sho calling senpai by first name is fantastic. The image in my head is Tomo lifting some skirt up because I'm a miserable person, and maybe I'll draw it. >___> It is killing me that Tomo's so damn tall but so tiny in terms of personality. djfjakfs

Yeaaaah, I'm not saying the idol thing is bad, just that it works for a lot of people and it's fine 'cause the idols made their own decision to be in the business and the fans just accept whatever the agency tells them to do. The point is that TOKIO's so different they aren't flourishing under Janizu; they're the only band that had a free admission outdoor live at a rock event, the only ones who write their own songs for their singles and not just albums. TOKIO break a lot of Janizu rules and the only reason they haven't been kicked from the agency is 'cause the Tetsuwan DASH gives waaaaay too much revenue.

I'm good with RPing on DW, though! :) We could make a separate comm, if you'd like? Then we can just tag entries with the characters involved or whatever for sorting purposes. AND YO I'm all for outsmarting but Keita's gonna need a better reason than his being blackmailed for... doing blackmail, 'cause he's pouring all his resources and time into the 3bill yen case. ~~and anyway even if he got arrested he'd probably sleep with a guard to get out or something LMAOOO~~

~~Maybe Sho can buy him a nice skirt too, something flattering and soft to the touch... something easy for Sho to kneel in front of, and lift up, and...~~ fklklhskcl;;;;slds IF YOU DREW IT THAT WOULD BE AMAZING. I think I saw some of your art when I was going through some older subs (TOKIO with Pokemon?) and ffffffff IT'S SO GOOD. >______<

I LOVE HOW TOMO IS SO TALL COMPARED TO OTHER MUSICIANS/IDOLS. How he towers over them yet now I know how uke he is!

The idol thing is pre-packaged pretty boys marketed as fap material and I am okay with that, but it's very different from having a band writing and playing their own music ~~and coming out with the stuff they say, haha~~ Could TOKIO leave JE? Or is it like, no, we have your souls now?

Sure, that works for me! :) Damn, maybe I should get some more userpics so I can have some Sho and/or Kouya ones. Don't you worry, I'm gonna do my Kurokouchi research and try and find a loooooot of ways to piss Keita off. ~~hhngh yes~~

IM YELLING THAT POKEMON THING IS SO OLD... I think it was MaboNaga and their starters?? GOD... I have a whole bunch of art I don't post any more, but it's mostly because I keep drawing Tomo getting fucked by Mabo and nobody wants to see that. :3c AND YOU KNOW WHAT, DAMN YOU. But now I'm totally thinking of when they were younger (maybe Tomo's in his late twenties, Sho in his early?), and Tomo teaching Sho how to touch him, and Sho being like "Nagase-kun is into this kind of stuff? What the fuck" but also being like "looks like I'm into it too what the fuck" AND IT'S JUST. HILARIOUS.

Sho: /pushes finger in
Tomo, absolutely sensitive to everything: Sho-kun...
Sho: (Sh-Shit...)

HAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAAHHAA

mabo said once that tomo should never have had his growth spurt and stayed shorter than taichi because tomo has a habit of hiding behind people when he gets scared and it's absolutely useless because he's taller than everyone ;sf;shdl;dkg

TOKIO could arguably leave Janizu but they wouldn't be able to be TOKIO any more if they did, obviously. And lately TOKIO's been having issues with where they want to go as a band (I LOVE HOW... HONEST THEY ARE?? HOW UPFRONT THEY ARE ABOUT HAVING PROBLEMS...), so if they left Janizu I don't even know if they'd stay together. :|a Really, the best thing about them is that they don't fake shit--they talk about their fights and how they hated each other, and they mention when they're having trouble behind the scenes and all. IDK. That kind of honesty is rare in this business and it makes me all :'( They're also really good at keeping work shit separate from personal shit--like Mabo said that even though they're fighting a lot with regards to TOKIO's direction now, they're still the best of friends and that won't change even if the band breaks up. ;lsdkf;jsdg

IT'S UP TO YOU WITH THE USERPICS YO I DON'T MIND... but I made the comm and sent you an invitation, so you should be able to see it. :') i'm all for keita disassociating from sex at some point because all he really does is use it to his advantage and while it feels good in a physical sense it's not like he's getting any actual fulfilment any more and he'll sleep with anyone to get leverage ;sdkf;sdjg

Edited 2017-03-02 05:13 (UTC)

SO OLD MAYBE, BUT SO GOOD. Plus I like Pokémon so it's win/win. ~~Hnnngh I would like to see that~~ AND I'M NOT SORRY, EXPECT A LOT MORE. Yes, I can totally go for younger Tomo and Sho with each other - I'm thinking Sho might never have been with a man before? Like maybe he's found men attractive but he's only ever slept with women, so doing anything with Tomo is all new to him, but POWER SUB NAGASE TOMOYA has a way of making Sho be the top anyway... and he realises he likes it. (We don't have to do it like that, but it's an idea!)

Sho: *realises he actually has a lot of power and control doing this*
Tomo: S-Sho-kun...
Sho: *pulls finger out again, just to leave Tomo wanting more*
Sho: *smirks*
Sho: *waits*
Sho: *pushes two fingers in*

*ahem*

Yeah, it's the honesty I like. It's kind of sad when groups have to pretend to all be happy and best friends all the time when really you know they hate each other. :|

OMG THANK YOU THAT IS THE BEST NAME EVER. ~~I dunno, I just get a kick out of imagining Keita having wild passionate sex without any emotional attachments, just fucking hard and fast and dirty and not giving a fuck~~

SEE IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE SHO'S TOTALLY CONVINCED SENPAI'S GOING TO WANT TO SCREW HIM WHEN HE TRAPS HIM ON A MATTRESS BUT THEN TOMO'S ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH SUCKING SHO OFF AND FINGERING HIMSELF AT THE SAME TIME AND SHO IS LIKE ??????????????????????????????????????? AND I JUST. THE IMAGE IS MAKING ME LAUGH SO HARD i'll draw sakurase porn i promise

i just imagine tomo happily driving sho home like a good senpai, maybe from sportsfes or something cos sho's place is on the way to tomo's place, and then being like :D! let's go for dinner! because tomo's an idiot who likes to treat his kouhai, and. boom. THERE'S ALSO THIS ONE STORY THOUGH of sho seeing tomo in public outside of work with a guitar on his back, and how sho thought tomo was going to serenade him or something??? AND IT MAKES ME LIKE... SHO, WHAT MADE U THINK TOM WAS GONNA SING U A LOVE SONG......... like sakurase are so cute, sho loves control and tomo loves being controlled and it works f i n e

and while sho seems mild on the outside hes wild on the inside and tomos the exact opposite :DK:H:KSg;AKFLA

also: here's demon!mabo and human!tomo which was like the first nsfw thing i ever drew maybe?? smth close to that LOL...... from 2 years ago

i respected the group kat-tun cos they didnt pretend to like each other and hated each other openly. idk what they sing but theyre the only je group besides tokio who hasnt lied so hats off to them

AND LMAO IM GLAD YOU LIKE THE COMM NAME?? i couldnt think of something witty so welp. AND YEAH I?? THAT'S WHAT I THINK OF TOO?? he's really good in bed but doesnt get anything from it beyond physical sensation, and even then he does it for ulterior motives always :|a i just feel like he's so fucked up and hollow inside that he doesn't really have a desire himself to have sex in the first place

Edited 2017-03-02 12:52 (UTC)

fjkjfcfvnjfjjkkh YOU ARE SPOILING ME. Is that how you'd like to get things started with Sho and Tomo? Tomo somehow goading Sho into making the first move and Sho's all like "Shit, my ass is gonna get pounded..." but then Tomo's mouth starts wandering and Sho just doesn't know what to do with this big hard sub pawing at him and.... yeah.

And those pictures! Dude, those are gooooood. @______@ fkljjhghjj if you drew Sakurase it would be like Christmas, fuck

Yes please to Tomo being impulsive and Sho getting pissy about it at first and doing his pouty face, but of course he'll forgive Tomo eventually ~~although he'd get punished later in bed, maybe by Sho not letting him finish for ages, just prolonging his agony~~

With Kurokouchi I have this head-canon where Keita and Michiko have got drunk a few times in the past and ended up fucking just for stress relief. Michiko prefers women and she and Keita aren't really attracted to each other and there are no deeper feelings thsn colleagues/friendship but it was two people who know they're safe together going 'fuck it' and having a good time because daaaaaaamn they have seen some bad shit.

Sho never having been with anyone with a sex drive like Tomo is a beautiful image and I'm laughing?? LIKE TOM'S TOTALLY FINE DOING MOST OF THE WORK, prepping himself, sitting on Sho's dick alfjalfjaajfj his thirst is so real and I'm all for it. I'M GOOD W/ IT IF YOU ARE?? and please, tom would enjoy having his agony prolonged, the god damn masochist

i think i'm just all for keita being mostly ace than anything :3a or just, him not really getting anything from sex any more. i deffo see him sleeping w/ her, but only after she initiates, and theres this 'weeeeell i do like you enough, so let's do it' aspect of it. loyalty and camaraderie hahahahah. just eat his ass michiko i'm fine

'GOOD' DOESN'T EVEN BEING TO COVER IT fjkkjfjfjjlsj;d;s;;;;z. I AM FLAILING. Yes, that is good. Like Tomo fingering himself and getting the lube ready ~~and maybe condoms?~~ and Sho's kind of overwhelmed and doesn't knoow what to do but DAMN TOMO FEELS SO GOOD he's pretty sure he can cope.

They only just mentioned Hazuki's name in Episode 4 so I still don't know the full backstory yet, but yeah, I can potentially see Keita being an ace. Plus my ace friends in real life are some of the flirtiest, dirtiest bastards I know, hahaha ~~The only problem I have with Keita being ace is that when I look at Tomo my sex drive goes through the roof and I want to do incredibly dirty things but that's just me being selfish~~

the concept of tomo riding his kouhai is terrible ~~WONDERFUL~~ and i hate it and i want to die AND THE TWO OF THEM HAVING SOME SECRET RELATIONSHIP IS. MAKING ME MISERABLE. it'd be even more ridiculous if tomo was still dating ayu at that time, but since she's cheating on him even though they haven't broken up yet he's just like YKNOW WHAT and sleeps with someone else too

a w f u l ~~and if you want me to type a starter or anything lmk :|a~~

THERE'RE SEX POSITIVE ASEXUALS, YO. ~~like me~~ As in ones who're cool with having sex and stuff even though they don't necessarily feel... sexual attraction. I can't explain it well besides the fact that sex has a secondary value as opposed to the primary value of... you know, wanting to fuck. I JUST CAN'T REALLY IMAGINE KEITA HAVING A LIBIDO ANY MORE he and keiichiro from fragile are the two tomospawn i most associate with being ace... rip

Edited 2017-03-03 09:19 (UTC)

HHHNNNGH FUCK YOU ARE KILLING ME HERE. Sure, throw in the situation with Ayu! That might make Sho feel even worse ~~even better~~ knowing that his senpai, this guy he looks up to and admires, is cheating on his already-cheating girlfriend with him and Sho's all "Senpai, are you sure this is okay?" and Tomo's like "I'M READY FOR YOU SHO-CHAN~"

~~aaaaaah yes please~~

DUDE, IT'S COOL. I get it. :) I'm not ace myself ~~probably the exact opposite, I am more like Tomo, oh god~~ but to me, gender and sexuality and sexual desire are all fluid. I know gender identity and being attracted to someone and having sexual desire are three different things, but they're usually all connected to each other, and there is no one right way or wrong way to do any of them.

"I'M READY FOR YOU SHO-CHAN~" IS MAKING ME LAUGH SO HARD I CAN'T spastic happy tomo ;lsdkf;hg even in the middle of sexy things ;lkslfhdsl;gjh;s;kghl WHERE IS THE LIE?????????????? but here's this shitty thing for you

AND YEAH, IDK?? I just know I had sex in the past 'cause I wanted to be close to my then-girlfriends/boyfriends in any way they wanted to be close, so. :|a Sexuality is a weird thing. but saying you're like tomo is... an intense way to describe it... you must be so powerful

HAHAHA OMG I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I WROTE TOMO SAYING IT, IT JUST FELT RIGHT.

AAAAAAAAAAAAH thank you for writing that first post! Your writing style is fantastic, I swear I'm gonna do my best to follow that up! And it'll be my first time RPing as Sho so I'm gonna try really hard not to suck ~~unless it gets to the point where Sho does some sucking himself~~

Aww man, I'm sorry if you ever felt pressured into doing stuff you didn't want to do. :| And... whoa... seriously, that is like... the biggest fucking compliment you could ever give me omfg. I dunno if you know it (it's on my profile but I don't always read peoples' profiles, so) I'm actually transgender, female-to-male, and Tomo is totally my male role model so saying I am powerful and intense like him is just... hahaha, wow. <3 So I'm biologically female but I basically live and date and fuck as a biological male ~~and I am so sorry if this is tmi~~ but let's just say my partner would have a thing or two to say about me waking up in the night and attaching onto their leg

MY........ MY WRITING STYLE IS DECENT?? i haven't written in so long though so i'm just kinda floundering around like yayayayayayayayayaayyaa \:D/ I BET YOU WON'T SUCK THOUGH, REALLY, DON'T WORRY. let's just do ridiculous things~~~~~

and here look at these gifs b/c it's your fault that i made them >:'(

I NEVER FELT PRESSURED NO, I did those things 'cause I wanted to. :Dd I'm cool, yo. AND HEY, YOU KNOW, FUNNY STORY, I'm FtM trans too! \o/ And Tomo's been my role model since I was a kid (the whole TOKIO, actually, but kid!me really looked up to Tomo the most and now that I'm older I feel maybe I'm leaning more towards Tatsuya who's mentally ill but doing his fucking best), so I definitely understand where you're coming from. Almost too much. XD It's really funny how life turns out sometimes.

IT'S MORE THAN DECENT! It's like... proper punctuation and spelling and long paragraphs and do you know how much I treasure those kind of RP replies ;_______;

I'm not gonna apologise for being responsible for those gifs! *furiously saves them* I'm actually watching that episode right now ~~why is Funassyi bowling whilst dressed as Sherlock Holmes~~

HAHAHA WHAT. Y'know, it's weird, I kind of had this feeling that you might be FtM, but it'd be rude to just come out and ask it, right? XD Tomo's one of the reasons I came out in the first place, seeing his confidence and the way he's just "Fuck it, I'm doing things like this!" I get you on how you feel about Tatsuya though, being trans comes with its own whole load of issues as well as having anxiety and depression anyway, soooooo. If you ever wanna chat or just need someone to talk to about things, hit me up. ~~And let's be a couple of shameless, terrible, Tomo-shipping TOKIO guys together~~

The fact that you're awed by punctuation and spelling really makes me wonder what horror stories of RP you might have had going on... ( ´_ゝ`) BUT I'M GLAD YOU LIKE IT.

Funassyi is a god damn gift to this earth, wtf. Every time he does anything I'm like "THAT'S ME", especially when they put the mic to his eye akhaldhakdjak I LAUGHED SO HARD??? But also Tomo constantly trying to cheat to get points is so fucking cute he's so RIDIC.

I feel like we all just sort of have this trans radar--my first FtM friend knew I was trans before even I knew I was trans and I was like WHAAAAAAT. But man, Tom and Tatsu have been through hell--Tomo was bullied all the time as a kid for presenting feminine, and then even more when he debuted, and that made him insecure and shy and scared and self-hating )': ~~until Mabo came into his life~~ but something about Tatsuya blew my mind 'cause you literally could NOT tell throughout the years that he's been struggling with mental illness and he only mentioned it last year after his divorce and I was like WHAT... Like I wish I was as strong as him... Unbelievable...

BUT THANKS IT'S
always nice to have friends who get the issues. Like I can never really talk about when the dysphoria gets really bad with anyone 'cause they don't get it?? And it's just. Bleh. When I saw your profile about the time you first added me I was like :''''''''') but it's kinda weird bringing up another person's identity so I just >____>;; kept smiling quietly in my heart aldhakfhakd

Hahaha, God, I've done some bad RPing in my time with people who didn't know how to use commas or even speech marks... I don't wanna sound like an RP elitist though, I'll still RP with people whose grammar and spelling and style isn't fantastic because everyone's gotta start somewhere and I think encouraging others is great. (And of course if someone's first language isn't English, fuck, they're already doing better then me since English is the only language I am fluent in.) But when I find someone who types RP like you do, it is most definitely appreciated. ~~working on a reply now but it may not be done until you're asleep, sorry! I'll try and make it worthwhile to wake up to~~

I LAUGHED LIKE A DRAIN WHEN THEY PUT THE MIC TO FUNASSYI'S EYE. And yeah, Tomo's constant 'LET'S MAKE THIS FAIR!' like with the red bowling pin. YOU ARE A TREASURE TO THIS WORLD, TOMO. <3

Funny you should say that about Tomo getting bullied too... I went to an all-girls' school and I was bullied mercilessly for being so masculine and hating wearing skirts and being into things which supposedly only boys like. I FEEL YOU. And Tatsuya quietly fighting his mental illness, that's fucking admirable. I read about it before I became a TOKIO fan and I have a lot of respect for him because of it.

Awwwww man, seriously, I get it. :| I've been through (and still going through) the self-doubt and the self-hatred and the self-harm, and I'm not saying that to be attention-seeking, I'm just stating it as a fact. Okay, I can't ever know exactly what you've been through or how you're feeling, but if you wanna talk or even rant at me about it, I at least get the dysphoria thing maybe? ~~oh my god aaaaaaaah TOKIO-senpai noticed me~~ fklk;sk;zk;ldk;ldd;z

Edited 2017-03-03 14:10 (UTC)

YO TAKE YOUR TIME WITH THE REPLY!! i'm usually slow as shit too :3rz and man i know what you mean! w/ me i still freak out about grammar and if i use words right and junk--being esl is hard! and i guess i don't really notice when other folks have problems?? mostly i'm just happy anyone's rping with me. )': but sometimes there're just these writers... and i'm like (´；ω；`) how could u ever find me worthy of being ur partner...

pot pot pot PIN pot pot also killed me like sldjakfjalfhakd team fragile was a good episode and tomo was such a b r a t and i loved it so much i couldn't??? and what's with sho remembering when aiba and tomo went for curry. i just. Shokun.......

MMMH thank u for that!! and yea mental health is a whole mess of things but yknow at least we're trucking on :') i'm extending the same thing to u tho of course... i'm a dumb kid for the most part but i'll always be here to listen if u need it!!

tomo being bullied and made fun of for being feminine seriously made kid!me who was bullied for being a tomboy (and whose relatives hated it all the time) like. really admire him?? a lot. hence me growing up like ;__; i wanna be comfy w/ myself like him!! and tbh tom isn't even totally ok yet, his self-esteem is awful especially... but he's trying and that's enough to admire. because trying is all we can do >__< blehhhhh i'm so bad with words BUT I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS.

also is tokio senpai me??? WHAT IS THIS

Thanks dude, I really appreciate the offer of you being there. :) I gotta be honest, it's been fandom which has keep me going over the past few months so you've already helped with that. ~~not such a dumb kid after all~~ I GET THOSE FEELINGS TOO. I wanna be comfortable with myself as well and it's not gonna be easy for us but we can do it. Channel that inner badass Nagase. FUCK YOU, I AIN'T DONE YET. I GOT A LIGHT.

My replies are kind of delayed as I'm spending time with my partner this weekend (they're genderfluid, biologically female yet often present as male) and I'm watching a load of TOKIO stuff with them ~~and I have converted them to Tomo as well, look what you've done~~ :| And I can't do proper RP replies when Nagase-sama is on the screen, it's too distracting, hhhngh. As for that previous comment about me being powerful for being sexual like Tomo (still the greatest thing ever to say, thank you) - you can still be a powerful asexual, y'know? Having a sex drive doesn't make me any better or stronger. POWER ASEXUAL LANCE

Your English is pretty much PERFECT. It's better than a lot of people I know who have English as a first and only language. I'm shit with numbers but generally good with words, and like... your stuff is so easy to read. I know what you mean about being in awe when you RP with certain people though! Which is why I wanna try my best when I RP with you, so I can be a Sho who is worthy of his Nagase-senpai~

~~YES YOU ARE TOKIO-SENPAI TO ME OKAY.~~ You've been in the fandom for years and you do so many subs and you're teaching me so much about them! ~~sorry if that's weird~~

power asexual lance ahahahaha!! thanks :') being ace sometimes makes it difficult thinking about the future--MY future, romantically, or whatever you wanna call it and it's. yeah. i mean fundamentally i know it doesn't make me any more or less.. anything, but the insecurity is still there sometimes ( ´_ゝ`) the mind is an awful thing

i dont mind being called tokiosenpai tho it makes me feel good ffffffhhfh ive dedicated too much of my life to these six morons idek what i'm doing any more if not loving tokio at all hours :3rz save me

SUPER JEALOUS your partner watches all that stuff w/ u tho omg!! my ex haaaaated tomo cos he made her feel inadequate or something and she kept thinking i loved him more than her and relaying it now makes me realise how nuts that whole situation was but. love sure is blinding. they sound super cool tho, ur partner, and im glad y'all have been overdosing on the tomo junk. like. GOOD.

but seriously don't sweat abt the rp stuff!! it's supposed to be low pressure stress relief stuff anyway, so :8)))) AND JEEZ i'm sure you'll be fine shhhhshshshshshshshh UR ALREADY A COOL SHOKUN FOR YER NAGASESENPAI DONT WORRY.

Oh yeah, you can know something logically, but that doesn't stop your brain doing the crazy flailing anxiety thing where you overthink everything and basically just implode into a small, tangled-up ball of worry. Believe me when I say, though, that I don't think being ace makes you any less important or weak or flawed ~~and that's coming from someone with a sex drive that's so fired-up I would probably fuck a door if there wasn't anything else available~~

...besides, just having a sex drive makes things more complicated sometimes. Like I think with my pants and it just causes a whole load more problems, hahaha.

~~yes you are my TOKIO-senpai and I am relieved to know you are okay with that, i won't save you but please drag me down with you kthnx~~

Sorry, I didn't wanna make you feel shitty bringing up my partner when I know you've only recently had a messy break-up. Mainly I just wanted to say I am so excited about doing this RP and it's really important to me but this is why I am delayed in replying at the moment. That's so crappy that your ex wasn't into Tomo or watching TOKIO stuff with you - I'd say she had bad taste but she must have liked you, so she did have some good taste in men somewhere, right? *stupid grin* You deserve to find someone awesome who treats you well and can watch TOKIO with you and encourage your 'shipping and your passion, because having passion for something in this world is so damn important.

Like I don't know where things will go with me and my partner - it's a long-distance thing and to be honest I got together with them in the first place because I was thinking with my pants ~~i am a dog in heat~~ but we'll see.

As for the RP... I'm also kind of 'Aaaaah, he knows so much more about JE history than I do!' So I apologise in advance if I get details wrong about Sho and things like that, but please feel free to correct me if I make any major mistakes which don't make sense!

*BLUSHES LOUDLY* N-NAGASE-SENPAI IS TOO KIND~

Edited 2017-03-03 22:17 (UTC)

I am not an adult, I am a big child with a disposable income

I DONT EVEN HAVE DISPOSABLE INCOME

I say disposable income, basically I live in debt BUT HEY I CAN AFFORD MERCHANDISE SOMETIMES SO YAY

Re: I say disposable income, basically I live in debt BUT HEY I CAN AFFORD MERCHANDISE SOMETIMES SO

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